this thought just crossed my mind - WHAT IF THERE IS A COCKROACH IN MY APARTMENT??? Oh my goodness. I will let it take over my apartment and I'll sleep in the streets. Okay. I have resolved to get to know my neighbours.

the thought of grad students is terrifying me now that I've heard a little of what it entails - smarter people, older, class-participation-nuts people. and 8000 word research papers? I have to go check if there are courses with no research papers. how does one even start on one?

been junking profusely the past 3 days - leading to a pretty soare throat, a heaty body, bloatedness and weight gain (over unworthy food - urgh!). tried staying hoem the whole day today to focus on some public law tutorial because 1. I'm on call next week 2. even when not on call she calls everyone 3. readings are super thick 4. next week there is something on EVERYDAY (monday - lcs contract due + chiong more public law tut, tues - go LCF , weds - conduct an interview + photoshoot, thurs - go LCF, fri - lawmed debate finale)

plus, V day is on CNY first day and I haven't gone shopping or put any thought into what to get J oh no oh noo!! ideas! i need ideas!

I need a little time to think through everything that is happening! Top 10 thoughts passing through my head the past week:

1. What should be on this place now that I've shifted food over to the new place?
2. Canada. Love my apartment. How to decorate it?
3. This sem is terrible - My brain hasn't started working since this sem began. Public law tutorials always make me feel (even after I've taken the trouble to prepare) that I can never be prepared enough. Equity... I don't feel anything about it because I have not a single clue about what has been happening since sem started. Not. a. clue.
4. Dreading the CNY holidays/mid-sem break. 2 assignments and tons of reading (cramming half a sem's worth of knowledge so as to do assignment)
5. Internships? Shall just do one two-week one to clear my conscience
6. Canada. Come back for 2 weeks in Dec or spend Christmas/birthday in NYC?
7. Canada. LDR. Nough said.
8. Canada. What will happen to my food blog??? AHHHHHH!!
9. Canada. Maybe I should blog about life as a student overseas for a year. Lifestyle + home cooking + fashion blog. Mmmm.
10. I miss the girls.